Giving Myself Freedom
Hi friend!
I don’t know how you got here, whether it be me sharing my blog link with you or you stumbled upon this blog yourself, but welcome I’m glad you’re here! A little about me, my name is Michelle Pham I laugh brightly, feel deeply, and have and a very healthy obsession with Harry Potter. No- I’m serious, as I’m writing this, I am playing Harry Potter background music to accompany me (it also gives me Hunger Games vibes but I’m not mad at it). You can find the music link below. I don’t own this video nor do I take credit for it! I’m just sharing it with you if you’d like to listen to it as you continue to read this post. That way, you can feel more connected to me haha.
What led me to start this blog.
Quarantine has been crazy, hasn’t it? We are more than halfway through the year. Honestly, in a regular year, I could merit everything that has happened in my life recently but given that we’re pretty much all stuck in this isolation black whole state, I just can’t believe everything I’ve been through these past few months. I do plan on elaborating on this more in later posts but for now, I’ll just give you a brief rundown.
Like a lot of Millennials, I too am very aware of my mental health state… maybe too aware. But I think it is a good thing. I found myself ending 2019 and settling into early 2020 extremely depressed. I’m talking no motivation of squat, completely isolating myself from the world, constantly in a state of low lows. I can only recall being THAT depressed one other time in my life and trust me, I’ve had my share of depressive episodes. Anyway, after what seems like an eternity of depression, self-loathing, and just pettiness and hatred in my heart, I found myself finally coming out of it. And with this new season of my life, I’m able to see myself in a new light.
Honestly, I’m changing. For the first time in my life, I’m hopeful and welcoming change. I’m hopeful and WILLING to put in place everything I’ve learned from YEARS of therapy. Which brings me to my main point of “what led me to start this blog.” I wanted to gift myself a creative space. I wanted to gift myself space to freely express myself openly; to allow myself to try new things, to challenge myself, to revisit some old loves, and most importantly to have a place to record the journey.
My hopes for this blog.
As I said earlier, I hope to share myself in this blog. I hope to express myself on this blog. I hope to write as often as I can. I hope to not only cover music to put on my YouTube channel (username: asmyself) but I also hope to be able to share my original music as well. I want to share my passion for food in trying different foods, restaurants, or sharing recipes! Or a place I can run wild with k-drama craziness, or get lost in the mountainous Netflix shows/movies. Oh, and don’t think I forgot. Of course, my extreme love for Harry Potter and my mission to weave in Harry Potter’s magical essence in my everyday life! I just want this blog to be a space I can openly be me you know?
My message to you.
Whether you are a friend or stranger, I hope that you come along for this ride but not only to sit as a passenger… I hope this space, our space, welcomes you to take the wheels of your life as well - To embrace your true self, whoever you may be / wherever you may be. Thank you for joining me. And to you, my friends, thank you for encouraging and loving me as I learn to do what you’ve been trying to show me so well all this time.
This is me,
AsMyself.
